Saturday, August 13, 2011

And she's walking!

We have a walker! On July 26, Xiomara took her very first steps! It surprised everyone else but me. To everyone else she is this small, tiny, baby still. I know better! She has been talking for sometime now, crawling like a champ since 6 months, climbing stairs, and standing up all by herself. I knew it would only be a matter of time before she took her first steps.

I'm so proud of her. Watching her walk, now practically run, toward me all proud of herself is so much fun! She is doing more walking than crawling these days.

It again reminds me of how fast time goes. It also makes me a little sad that her birthmom "J" isn't here to see it all take place. Somtimes I just stare at Xiomara and think it just isn't fair for her that her birthmom isn't with her. Then I think how it isn't fair for "J" not to see these first steps. My heart screams with the realization that she should be able to see this; to relish in this mom pride of her daughter taking her first steps.'s hard being an adoptive parent sometimes. Adoption is so beautifully messy and I love every little moment with Xiomara. But I still can't help but wish that "J" was here to enjoy it too. I suppose I will feel that way forever through every major milestone.

But for now, I'll just hold onto Xiomara a little longer and cherish her "firsts" as I know now how fast they really go. All the while I'm going to whisper in her ear to slow down just a little.

When did your little one take his/her first steps?


  1. Vanessa, she is just beautiful!! What a treasure to have her in your life, and to able to see all those firsts! I can only imagine how hard it must be to think of J. I can only hope and pray that she reads your blog and is able to share in some of her firsts this way. For her adoption must have been what she thought right for her and for Xio. I am sure it helps her to know and hopefully see what a great mom Xio has in her life..not to mention the awesome family too :) Wishing you all the best and still hopeing to meet you all some day :)

  2. Thank you Brittany! Actually, to my knowledge, "J" does not read our blog. I've gone back and forth about telling her about it, but so far we have chosen not to. I do share alot with her though by letter and hope that she can share our joy through that.

    Still hoping to meet you soon too!! :) Thanks again!

  3. What an exciting milestone!! She looks so happy to be walking, how cute!

  4. It is super exciting to see her walking! :)


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