Three Months Later

Sometimes life goes faster than any of us would like to think. I feel that way now especially as I approach my late 20's and think about my 30's. Perhaps it is because of everything happening in Japan. I keep asking myself, am I really enjoying every moment with my family? Am I giving it my all when I am with them? Am I depositing into their lives what I want them to know so they can successfully grow up and be all they can be in Christ?

If I'm truthful, I think that answer is no.

Here I am three months into the new year and three months after posting this.

Do I feel as if I've changed? Somewhat.

But I'm not satisfied with somewhat.

I want to really know my husband and understand what drives him each day. What are his passions?

I want to really know my girl who made me mommy. What makes her light up and what makes her frustrated? What can I do that will make each day special for her?

I want to really know the power behind the mischief in Meridian. What makes her so funny and how does she continue to make us laugh time and time again?

I want to get down on the floor more often and play peek-a-boo with my baby. To hear that giggle and know that I brought that smile to her face.


It's not naturally in me. I'm not a play on the floor type of mom, I'm more of a snuggle and read a book mom. But I'm determined to try and try harder. Because life really is too short. These 18 years with my girls are all I have to truly impart in their lives. To impact their life for the better. Who I am will directly reflect who they are one day.

So for the next 9 months I want to do better. Do more. Be more. I want my girls to look back on this year as the year mama changed. For the better.

P.S. Isn't Chris' long hair looking nice?!? :)

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011

As I sit here and reflect on this last day of December 2010, my heart also looks forward to what God has in store for us in 2011.

I'm not one to make a New Year's Resolution, but I do like to dream and set goals in my life.

Perhaps the biggest goal for this next year is this: my family

These pictures are on what I call my family wall in my living room. I love that wall. It says who I am: a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter. I love the people on that wall. They are the people who are my life and since November, I've been feeling God call me to spend more time getting to know them. Truly know them. Study them. Enjoy them. Love them.

I've avoided writing about it because I didn't want to feel God's conviction that perhaps other things like house work, laundry, computer time, and even cooking can sometimes come between me and the ones I love. That perhaps somedays I go thru the motions just waiting for naptime or bedtime where I can have "me" time again. But that wall is hard to ignore. Those faces stare at me each day.The pictures are getting older, while the little girls around me are growing up.

Zoelle who is now closer to four than three. Four! That is practically grown up! Meridian who at 19 months can understand and follow all my directions. She is an incredible helper as she toddles away mumbling and shaking her head. And Xiomara, my tiny little girl who is now full out babbling like a big girl and almost half way thru her first year of life.

And my husband, my dear Christer who works hard not only at his work, but willingly volunteers to help me out at home, just to bless me. I need to get to know him again. To know best how I can help him. To love him.

Time isn't stopping as much as I'd love it too. We are all getting older and as I get older I realize more and more what little time I have left with those I love. So I write this post for me. To remind me of what God told me. Put it away. Put other things away to spend time with the girls, with Chris. To show them Jesus so they can show Him to the world.

Do you have goals or resolutions you make each year? Do you typically stick to them?