Part of the reason it is hard for me to get across, is because it is personal. Personal is hard for me. I'm actually quite an introvert and feel as if I only let a few people truly know my heart. It is pretty easy for me to shy away from opening up and sharing as I am so private. Yet, this is one post that I must share.
Financially we are at a tough point in our lives. We've all been there before, right?
The last six months we have been stretched in finances in ways we were not expecting. Not even close. Part of the reason I hesitate sharing is because I am not immune to the fact that we have far more than others. I know we are blessed. I've always been of the belief that we are blessed when we have little, and we are blessed when we have much.
Well right now is a little time in our life. Probably more so than ever before. It has had us stressed and relying on God in a way that we haven't in a very long time.
The awesome part is: God knows and He always provides. Even if it is just to bless us with extra.
In October, a local radio station had a chance to win a pair of P!nk tickets via Facebook. Now, you all know that I love Taylor Swift and Maroon 5, but I also like P!nk. However, hubby loves her music! When we saw she was coming in concert, we talked about buying tickets, but ultimately decided that we just didn't have the funds. By chance, I entered the contest by liking and sharing the picture. Over 2,000 people shared the picture and I won!
Can I also take a moment to share how four simple eggs can show me God? I shared before how our chickens seem to be molting and thus not producing eggs. One particular day I was feeling very down. We had some unexpected news and I was just feeling like crying out, "Where are you God?". It may be crazy, but when I went to collect eggs that day and found four, I rejoiced knowing that God cared.
Perhaps the greatest time in my life that I have ever seen Jesus is through the love of a stranger. Zoelle is an avid learner. She has burned through math books, reading books, and pretty much all of her school. I was desperate to buy new curriculum for her. Like a whole set of curriculum. However, this meant spending close to $300 and we just didn't have that right now. So about a month ago, I sat down after the kids went to bed, figured out exactly what we needed and was going to just buy it with some money we were wanting to keep for savings. Before I bought it though, I hoped onto Facebook, posted on a message board for the curriculum we use looking for any coupon codes. Several people responded and told me that Heart of Dakota will work with people and financial circumstances if you contact them directly (side note: what an awesome company for doing that). I also had two people message me telling me that they were done with that particular level of curriculum and were willing to sell it, but they had to get back to me on a price. They both promised they would get back to me by the following night. I was more than willing to buy used curriculum. One of those two people friend requested me (so we could message back and forth about the curriculum), but I also received another friend request from someone I didn't know. I ignored it all day. I kicked myself the next morning when Chris went off to work and I forgot to send with him the one check I had to pay for this curriculum. That meant we couldn't buy the curriculum during the day, which meant one more day of delay for Zoelle and moving on in school. That evening, I opened up my computer and was browsing Facebook before going to bed when I decided to check my messages to see if the two people had decided on a price for their used curriculum yet. No messages in my inbox, but I happened to see a message in my other folder. Now, I know that other folder exists, but I rarely use my computer these days unless I am editing photos or blogging. So the message did not come up on my phone. When I clicked on it, it was from the stranger who had friend requested me that morning and it said something like this: "I would like to buy the HOD curriculum you need. Please message me and let me know what you guys need. Have a great day! "
I was shocked! We messaged back and forth a bit, and a few weeks ago a package arrived on our doorstep with all the curriculum I will need to finish out Zoelle's school year (and I can use parts of it in the years to come for the other two girls).
The day that package came, I cried tears of gratitude. I'm still crying tears of gratitude. That a complete stranger, not knowing me, or even our financial circumstance would offer to buy the curriculum for us just because she saw my post, is beyond me.
|Excited over her new math!|
But it isn't beyond God!
I honestly have fought with God these last few months. I'm not going to lie, there are times I have felt that He has abandoned us. That He no longer cared. We have worked hard, been faithful to Him, yet there have been some tough days.
I'm not immune to the fact that there won't be tough days ahead. But, I can look back on them and realize that God is faithful. In both the big and the little, He is faithful.
So while this post may be written for me to remember in the future, perhaps you needed to hear it today. God knows and He cares. It seems cliché, but as I've realized these last few months, it is oh so true!