MckMama recently posted a post on being bold that completely challenged me and made me think. I pride myself on typically being pretty outspoken on things. I have, in the past, had no problem sharing my viewpoint, and sometimes it wasn't in a respectful way either (not that I'm proud of that). So when Jennifer posted that God had been stirring in her heart to be honest and not hold back I felt that familiar feeling of panic.
You see, I try and be "myself" wherever I go and in whatever I do. I try so hard not to hide anything, or worry what others will think. Yet, in real life, and in my blog world, or even on facebook, I tend to hide sometimes the truth of who I really am. I often find myself thinking- Whatever would they think if they really knew that I didn't parent that way? They would judge me. I don't want people to realize that sometimes my hubby and I do fight, or sometimes I am crabby with my kids.
I'm not perfect, no one is, yet somehow I try to be perfect and sometimes I think we all expect each other to be perfect. I mean why else do you think we only post the good stuff on our blogs, or our facebook statuses? In the end who cares if you and your hubby fought*? Who cares if you have yelled at your child*? Who cares if you don't have your child sleeping through the night by one month of age? I certainly don't care because I know you are not pefect, and neither am I.
*Note: I'm not saying these are ok things to do, I'm just saying that this, at times, is the reality of life. Why not just admit our struggles and know that as the body of Christ, we can pray, not judge each other for who we are, and what we do.
MckMama certainly doesn't know it but she so challenged and convicted me with her post. I'm sure it's exactly what God wanted, but I'm not sure I like that! I'm working hard to live as if I were living in a glass house. I'm working hard at being the real me here and in real life. It's not going to be easy, but I plan on getting there this year. For I truly think it is what God wants. He doesn't want us to be passive, but agressive in our walk with Him, and to be open with others. I challenge you to open yourself up, to be real, and to hold nothing back. Because maybe, just maybe, God wants you to reach more people for Him by being who you truly are with others, a sinner in need of God's grace each and everday, just like me, just like them.